When you have to eat a plate of shit

Today I learned a very important lesson. Just as a back ground before I dive into it. I am originally from Long Island, New York. On January 2017 I made one of the biggest decisions of my life. I decided to move out of my house and live on my own, in New York city no less. I did this to be closer to school, but more important to spread my wings and test their strength against the merciless winds of life. Fast forward eleven months later, me on a bicycle picking up a delivery on 12th street, 1st ave. The destination, 72nd street 1st ave. Its a cold November night, I had spent the previous 5 hours doing deliveries all over the city. To makes matters worse I was already on my way home from 85Th street and Lexington. Needless to say I was tired and furious to say the least. As I began the grueling trip 60 blocks uptown, I began to dive deep into my victimizing, self-pitying, and just pain out bitching self. The pedals felt heavier, my body struggled to keep going and worst of all it seemed as it would take me forever to make this delivery. It may seems like an exaggeration but I was borderline about to shed a tear and quit my job by way of desertion. At that moment I remembered that episode of the walking dead where one of Negan’s cronies said and I’m paraphrasing: If you have to eat a big plate of shit, you don’t nibble….. It was then that I realized that I need to pay my rent, school bills and so I had no choice but to eat that shit. At that moment I pedaled so hard that the 40 degree weather felt like a hot summer day. My heart beat became the drums to which my feet pedaled and the faster pedaled, the faster the beat. I didn’t slow down when my legs ached, and I certainly didn’t feel sorry for myself. I took shark bites of that plate and gobbled it down like it was a warm plate of syrupy flapjacks. Completing that delivery and then one more after that to fill my daily quota of deliveries opened my eyes. I finally saw that for the past few months I’ve been nibbling on the plate of shit that comes with working to pay for school, rent, living expenses; Not to mention finding the time for schoolwork and also creative work to pursue my dreams. I realized then I’ve been avoiding life, always nibbling, never really accepting life fully and the shit that comes along with it. So I’ll leave you with this: Sometimes life will serve you a nice big plate of steamy shit, and in those moments just remember not to nibble. Take those shark bites, and keep eating it for as long as it takes, because that is how you will reach your goals and make your dreams come true.

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